My Second Chapter:

Healing with the Medical Medium Information

I dove in and began doing all things Medical Medium overnight. I ordered A LOT of supplements and began doing the heavy metal detox cleanse, eating a ton of salads, and working on my hydration. I began feeling benefits right away. The first being 20+ years of vaginal yeast infections disappeared overnight! I felt called to begin sharing about my journey (via Instagram). I felt like part of an amazing community, at the forefront of holistic healing. I felt like I had everything I needed.

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But quickly I began to feel there was something wrong. The first well known Medical Medium trained practitioner I worked with put me on 30 supplements, said my liver was in great shape (despite my feelings otherwise), and told me I would be healed in 6 months. Five months later I was feeling really bad. I put out another desperate plea for help and in arrived another practitioner. Through her I learned to work with the Medical Medium information differently. My healing actually began to move forward, and I learned about all the classic pitfalls that people fall into during healing. One of my most notable shifts during that time was healing a tumor in my left breast a year into my healing journey. I also learned how sensitive I really am, and that the level of my illness was quite unusual, and the struggles I was facing were far more complex than most people. It was a hard pill to swallow.

 

I eventually did a 1+ year long mentorship with with that practitioner, where I dove deep into Medical Medium information, learned how to do Intuitive Energy Scans, and began taking on clients on. I have watched these same insights and wisdom help turn people's healing process around, even with my clients who had already been doing Medical Medium protocols for months or years before coming to work with me.

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Energy Healing

Despite all that amazing work, I was still hitting roadblocks that didn't make sense to me. Why when my physical body appeared relatively clear in my intuitive scans was I still having so many symptoms? And why were strange destructive things happening in my life no matter how hard I worked? Many of the intuitives I went to for assistance were even confused, sometimes telling me I was the problem or that I just needed to be more patient. They simply didn't understand and didn't realize their limitations and distortions were actually hurting me. Not everyone has a simple path, and I knew something greater was being asked of me. I walked away from that group of healers, and began exploring in a different way. I was again in unchartered territory. New healers came into my life to activate me into a greater Truth about how this universe really works and what was being asked of me.

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I began integrating other tools into my healing journey. Often it meant taking a tool and developing my own expertise with it, and pushing the limits of what I thought was possible. And sometimes it meant dropping tools that didn't help me heal.

 

I taught myself to do Energy Healing and began integrating it into my practice with clients because I saw what a difference it could make to a healing journey. My team in Spirit was teaching me how to accelerate people's healing. I began to realize how much more complex illness is, and that it requires an understanding of subtle energies that go beyond just the physical. I was hungry for more the deeper I went.

 

Throughout the process, I never stopped asking questions, and I never stopped believing in my own healing. Eventually I became confident enough to move into deep inner healing work, and even face the ancestral and past life entities that had been traumatizing me my entire life. That part of the journey was a grueling dark night of the soul, that continues to deepen and evolve. It has asked me to face some of my deepest fears, and as a result I continue to become an even more powerful Healer.

 

Inner Work & Somatic Healing

That work catalyzed massive shifts in my life, and emboldened me to continue pushing into new areas of personal healing. I dove deep into my Inner Work through my body (via Somatic Healing) to heal my inner children and release the density that I still felt was affecting me in my day-to-day life, particularly my inner world. This opened me up to a whole new way of healing, to a whole new way of understanding illness. In the process I taught myself to move blocked energy and pain in my body through somatic alchemy, something I teach my clients when they are ready to engage with their healing on a more profound level. The deeper I have journeyed into this somatic work, the more psychic I have become and the braver I have become to go deeper into the depths of my pain, to help integrate and transmute it. It has been the most pivotal part of my journey, that I am still creating as I write these words. It is where I hope all my clients arrive after laying the foundations of their healing, because this is where true Co-Creation and Manifestation is realized.

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Spiritual Growth and Ascension

I knew from the moment I became sick that the journey was going to be radically transformative on a spiritual level. I had watched my sister go through it and was deeply touched by it, and I knew it was my turn now, except it was about living through it this time. The transformation took time and practice. I resisted it at first. I wanted my old life back, and I did not want to accept that this was my life now. But I had nowhere to go, but within. The journey of sitting with myself day in and day out in all the discomfort became a huge teacher for me. It taught me about pain, suffering, patience, and faith. It taught me to ask the universe for what I need, even if I didn't know what that exactly was. Every time I felt stuck, a new gift came through to show me the way forward. Some lessons were immediate and others were slow going.

 

I now look back and see every step of my process was helping me understand the importance of healing the mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical bodies, and the roles they play in our illness and in reclaiming back our health. My embodied experience of illness was literally giving me the map to the freedom I so desperately desired. To my excitement, it expanded beyond that, to include my ancestors, other lifetimes, High Beings, Energy Medicine, and an intimate study of the Ascension process. The journey ultimately opened me up to my greater self and to my greater potential as a Physical and Spiritual Being. It has taught me to live in a way that welcomes my shadow in, because I know that through the alchemical transformation of my pain is where I have experienced the most growth and magic in my life. And that is what I strive to teach my clients in our work together, however it manifests for them in their embodied experience of illness and healing.

 

Fulfilling My Dreams

It has always been my dream to be a Healer and a Teacher, which also means I am a perpetual Student in the process. I am constantly striving for growth. I teach through my lived experience. I don't have all the answers. I don't have all the knowledge. But I always have a deep willingness to show up, hold space, learn, and journey through the ups and downs, be it mine or someone else's, because that is where true Freedom is for all of us.

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Thank you for honoring my journey through the reading of these words.

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In Love and Light,

Zarnaz